CMO 113: Morning Struggle

 

Journal Entry — Coffee Break Reflection

Dear Coffee Breaker,

This morning has been a difficult one.

My son, who lives with schizophrenia, had a challenging night—beginning Thursday evening just after dinner and continuing straight through until Friday morning. When I woke, I found clothes left in the washer, items out of place, and the bathroom carpet soaked. I decided not to salvage it. His bedroom door is locked, and the key is nowhere to be found. I’m not worried; if necessary, I can remove the door. For now, I’m giving him space and time to come out for his morning medication. I ordered a non‑locking doorknob from Walmart—something I should have done months ago.

Procrastination… it catches up with us.

Alongside caring for my son, my mind feels crowded today. Thoughts swirl without settling, but I refuse to let this mental clutter steal the joy Christ gives. This is His story. He is the Author. I am simply one of many beloved characters privileged to share a small moment in His narrative.

My trust is in Him.

For now, I feel a measure of peace—His peace—though it doesn’t stop me from noticing the chaos in the world around me. Some days feel like “Mr. Toad’s Wild Ride,” twisting and turning without warning. (For the record, Mr. Toad is—or was—an attraction at Disneyland in Anaheim.)

Yet even in the craziness, we have the promise of Our Lady and the beloved Son of the Father. That alone is enough for me to trust, pray, love, and serve. God will take care of everything else.

I began this morning struggling. But after sitting with these thoughts and writing them down, I find that the struggle has eased. Am I tired? Yes. But struggling? No.

Stay strong in God’s love.

Until next time,

God bless.